I know I normally put a few reviews together because I don't think I'm that great of a book reviewer, but I feel like this one maybe deserves its own post. I've always been fascinated by psychology — why people think the things they think and do the things they do. I don't always understand, but I'm always interested in the thought process.
I also love reading celebrity memoirs. So when I heard that Portia de Rossi had written one, I wanted to read it. I think she's a fabulous actress; I loved her on Arrested Development and one of the best, most-underrated shows to ever get canceled too soon, Better Off Ted.
But everything in the book was before those two shows ever landed on her resume. "Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain" instead focuses on the time in the late 1990s when she got her first job as an actress on Ally McBeal.
Thus begins a year in which secrecy, lies and consuming as few calories as humanly possible are the friends she clings to. She refuses to eat anything but the few foods she has deemed acceptable — and in carefully measured and weighed portions. Even after consuming so little, she feels convinced she will gain weight if she doesn't work off every calorie. But she never admits that she has a problem. She claims she's "not skinny enough" to be an anorexic, even as she dips below 90 pounds.
Reading this book was heartbreaking. But it was wonderfully written. Every time Portia started to feel manic, anxious — I felt that right along with her. But it was so hard to see her punishing her body for being what it was, hating herself for perceived body flaws, and getting angry when others were concerned about her instead of being proud of her "hard work."
When she finally accepts help, you can feel her calm. I hope she still feels that. A+
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