Last Friday, Matt was supposed to do his preliminary exam and get the approval to do his dissertation research. Instead, a bomb threat caused Texas A&M to evacuate its main campus, so his exam was postponed and no new date was set. On Monday, he contacted all the people who needed to be present for this exam, and got it rescheduled for Wednesday. He felt kind of beaten down afterwards, and I could tell in the days leading up to it too, since he was still practicing his presentation for days after it should have been finished.
But the good news is, he passed.
In the meantime, I've been working longer days to learn the ropes with a new client, as well as trying to get caught up on existing projects (business is growing, YAY!). Plus, I'm starting to get overwhelmed with my (volunteer) workload at church. Not work's fault at all, but I've been spiraling a little out of control.
I'm generally a pretty happy, confident person, so it's unusual when I start feeling insecure and crying for no reason. I'm having a hard time actually feeling excited about anything right now. I'm bored and uninspired, and too exhausted to want to do anything to remedy either of those. I've been spending all my spare minutes looking on travel websites for cheap flights or places to drive because I feel like I just need to get OUT for a few days. (Whether or not that will actually happen remains to be seen.) Maybe alone, maybe drag my husband along.
It's funny that I feel such a need to be alone, because I really need to be socializing much more than I have been lately — that's one of those things I need in order to be happy. I've been going to a lot of networking events in the past few weeks, and while I'm constantly talking to people, it's not the same as spending time with friends. I spend entirely too much time in my house, talking to the cat. My emotional bank is drained.
But I'm still here, regardless of whether I post or not. I hope to find something interesting to write about soon.
Where do you go, or what do you do, to find inspiration? Did you have a good week?